Michelle and I just moved to Columbus, so I am in the position of finding a new life. Luckily I found work that I am excited about, now to redefine myself. Thinking of the things I defined myself by in Dayton may no longer be needed in my new life. I have been in one form or another a blue collar job, the last ending in trail technician for the Five Rivers Metroparks. I have many years in equipment operation from chainsaws to 20K Forklifts. What I have found is that at my new job those experiences are not of any interest to the people around. Frankly, I am finding maybe they are not for me either, they were pragmatic choices I made in order to pay the bills. They were jobs in the idea of doing the "right" thing. Which my family is a strong supporter of, happiness is a secondary concern. Whereas the bike shop is definitely a choice done for happiness above pragmatism. I find that there are things I could bring up to another level, however, I am not sure I care enough to become the guy that is really good at cleaning bathrooms again. I am that guy, I was trained very well at it, it was my primary responsibility at Englewood Metropark. That's not what I want to lead at, I would like to figure out how we can better recycle our trash, I would like to find a way to better dispose of tires and inner tubes. Scrubbing a toilet to high polish can become another worry for another day. I intend to become a first class mechanic, I am lucky I have excellent people to learn from.
Another thing I find is that there is this constant need to connect with people. But my approach I believe is wrong, often people compare histories and experiences problem being that I have had so many jobs that I feel like I often sound like a know it all. I need to learn how to hold back, and perhaps only discuss what I am truly passionate about i.e. FOSS, bikes, and art. Sure I was an EMT-B(license lapsed), I am currently certified Wilderness First Aid and CPR/AED. those are things that are important to me. When someone talks about their experience as a medic of in a hospital setting I should just listen and not contribute my experience? I have other similar examples but no need to continue at the end of the day I have to work through these ideas. I consider myself someone who has nothing that I am a master of but half-ass at a lot of things. I believe it comes off as if I believe I am a master of all things. I have to figure out how to change my delivery or just shut up.
Tuesday, February 28, 2017
We recently moved to Columbus, Ohio the state capital. Michelle is working on her MFA of photography and I am doing...... Well, that has been the question, what the fuck am I doing. I immediately started putting out resumes to see what was available in the park system. My mindset was to find a job that will contribute to OPERS. I did find quite a few, on a whim I applied to a bike shop and very unexpectedly received an email to set up an interview. The interview went great I was excited about the job. I was going to be doing something I really enjoy, working on bikes. Then I received a call back from a park for a full-time job that paid more and offered benefits. That sent the pragmatic part of my brain into a frenzy. This is the right thing to do, this is the decision an adult makes. I scheduled the interview it went really well except one hiccup, plant I.D. I actually should have known this, that was an eye opener. I have been working within the horticultural world for fifteen years now. That was an alarm bell, I knew most of the updated information on bicycles and I was only a hobbyist at this point. As a professional in landscaping and the park system, I could not I.D. basic landscaping plants was bad. With that, I withdrew my name from the list of candidates and am happily employed as a part time bicycle mechanic. This was a hard decision to make the happy one over the pragmatic one, I am glad I did.